b! miiinuuuus

hhahahahaha wtf. i didnt fail physics. i remained above average. yessssss

sociological theory

sucks.

finals
next week. eep.

spring quarter

im taking taiko. because i discovered unvented rage beneath my cool exterior. HA. that and i like hitting things.

dear god,

could you make it snow in riverside? that would seriously make my week.

<3 vanessa

dear the N,



thanks for telling me something that i already knew, but making it seem a little degrading.

<3 vanessa

37

thats how many degrees it is. in riverside. ha.

anyways, its dead week. and my room in messy.

tomorrow night is the "livelihood for leyte" benefit show for the mudslide victims of the Philippines. please come out and support this cause.

its not even that much to get in. 3 dollars! or canned goods! good stuff! you'll feel great about yourself, i promise.

finals

so with finals coming up, i would like to post my finals schedule here.

monday
physics final - 8:00am to 11:30am
soc 168 final - 3:00pm to 6:00pm

tuesday
get drunk

wednesday
burn

thursday
get drunk and burn

friday
study

satuday
soc 158 final - 11:00am - 2:30pm

YEAH, I KNOW.

tents

i should bring a tent to riverside and set it up on my patio. because honestly, that would be so cool.

(un)masquerade

the organizing committee of GABnet Riverside present: self-inflicted violence.

our mask was fucking scary. a la 'nip tuck'

italia

alex: so you're going to italy
me: yes sir!
alex: how long with you be there?
me: august to december
alex: thats a lot of pasta
me: i know!
alex: "i know!" she says!!

not doing anything


Four Jobs I’ve Had In My Life in LA:
1) telephone picker-upper at GB Tune up
2) retail slave at American Eagle Outfitters
3)
4)

Four Movies About LA I Could Watch Over And Over:
1) Collateral
2) Volcano ( come on, my former place of employment got blown up in it )
3) Crash
4) magnolia

Four Places I’ve Lived All Over L.A. (With Food Memories From Each):
1) koreatown - pho 2000
2)
3)
4)
i've only lived in one place in la

Four LA-Themed Shows I Love(d) To Watch:
1) six feet under
2) arrested development
3) threes company
4) animaniacs (ok fine, its burbank)

Four LA-Based Websites I Visit Daily:
1) losanjealous
2) blogging.la
3) franklinavenue.net
4) curbed la

Four Of My Favorite Foods Found In LA:
1) steak sandwich at yucas
2) swingers fries at swingers
3) combo wrap + hot potatoes at california chicken cafe
4) mac 'n' cheese + sweet potato fries at cafe 101

Four Places In LA I Would Rather Be Right Now:
1) eating a combo wrap at CCC
2) buying secondhand juicy at buffalo exchange
3) smoking a ciagrette in my car aimlessly driving through la
4) smoking a cigarette at fred 62 after eating a BLTA.

Also:

My music from my ipod got deleted, once again.
Whatever. My music will return, stronger than ever.

whatever man

Kat and I had the best conversation ever. I love my best friend.

This week has called the end of "Shitty February, 2006". It spilled over a little into March. I blame Myla for this because she's extending black history month.

Today, I have decided to ditch my sacrifice of smoking and myspace due to the fact that I have fucked up already and its only 6 days into Lent.

My New Lenten Promises Will Be

- learn how to capitalize letters
- re-organize life (keep computer on point, keep room clean)

Fuck man, I haven't felt this good in ages. I feel like I've been dragging my feet for forever and things are finally beginning to pick up.

ugh.

dear god,

i wish that computers never fucked up on me.
because that would spare me a lot of stress.
and since i have given up cigarettes for you
its giving me a headache. and i'm sick of it

i don't make any sense and i have no intention to change that.

love, vanessa

su-su-su-slacking

is it bad that all i want to do all day is sit around with my window's open but have my heater on full blast? is it bad that all i want to do is clean my room but i can never muster enough drive to get up and do it? is it bad that sometimes i just want to smoke a bowl and do nothing for the rest of the day? is it bad that i want this month to be over but i dont want it to be march yet?

i havent showered in a day and a half. and i dont feel like showering any time soon.

i feel like such a hippy with my hair. its fuckin' long.

i bought a shit-load of things online.

i've been sitting here in front of my computer attempting to write something. behind me, im watching tv. there area ton of thoughts in my head but i cant even get it out. for some reason, i've become self conscious about what i write on here. if i type out something happy, i'll feel like im being so fake. if i type something overtly depressing, i'll seem so whiny.

blah. thats depressing, make it stop.

that was december. 2003. why do i still feel this way.

this has redeemed my february



ok so i've been studying for my midterm on monday. i sincerely wish that the gym was open until midnight on sundays because my ass would be in there right now. people have asked me why i hate february so much. so, i've decided to put all my reasons in one conclusive post. lets go over this by year.

2002
- fell UP and flight of stairs on the hidden stair case at immac. result: large bruise
- stabbed in leg by a nail that was protruding out of a chair.
- did not get my class ring when i was supposed to get it. trust me, it was a big fucking deal.

2003
- virus wipe out on computer
- hydroplaned car on rowena and hyperion.
- crashed into curb.

2004
- leap year. i think the fact that it was a leap month, nothing bad happened to me.

2005
- got dumped.

2006
- spider bite on face
- jury duty
- suppose to see rex naverrete. the free show was SOLD OUT. fuckin' a.
- over draft on my account. UGH.

sO

i dare you to say that this whole february thing it ALL in my head. because it isnt. fuck february.

random

erika's birthday party was yesterday. it was an athena house party. they never fail to impress. i remember a lot of it. i attribute that to the fact that i got so drunk at the pre-party and i threw up most of the alcohol in my system before i got to the athena party. obligatory picture post:




peacock and peahen. protectors of our brood.



so narcissistic that i cut out both mic and jason out of the picture



my breasts look top notch. dont you wish you were there.



"cocoa butter and boobs"



this picture was taken after i announced that i was going to have a debut. they're all going to be there. TANGET: im having a debut. debut/21st birthday party/graduation celebration. june 2007. you're invited. no dancing or cotillion court but i will have 21 candles and 21 roses. kthanks.

this month must end.

kat's 21st bethday was the shit. i drunk dialed everyone to make them come. hahaha.


so i think this picture was taking saturday morning. that was the night we got really fucked up. FUCKED UP. and no, those are my underwear showing, thats how the pants were built.



these were the shots of patron that we took after everything was ok. woot.



brian says: fuck the popo



aww. familia



israel and bryant are singing.
i am gone.



you drank ALL THE PATRON.

yeah. that was a good weekend. too bad i dont remember all of it.

the wrath or february commences

- spider bite on FACE.
- overdraft!
- jury duty next week.

mohter fuckers. can this month be over now?

this february will suck as all the februaries before it have. (except for that random one in 2004, but thats because it was a leap year)

ok, the end. bye.

obsession.

love.love.love. project runway. so much that i have been re-thinking much of my wardrobe. and thinking of actually losing weight i look better in clothes (and out of clothes as well ;) anyways, i'll discuss this week's project runway, Inspiration.

"its a mother fucking walk-off"

i love daniel v. i love his crooked nose, the way he ties up his hair when he's working, and the fact that i can never have him. oh yeah, i love his designs too


niiice.


anyways. he won this weeks challenge with his flower dress. i loved the concept and i loved the dress but i know i could never pull it off.

nothing is a mistake
there's no win and no fail
there's only make.

resolve

1) procrastinate.
2) quit smoking.
3) drink a lot of water.

im kidding about number 2.

just kidding.

winter reading list.

1) The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe - C.S. Lewis
2) Franny and Zooey - J.D. Salinger.
3) Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West - Gregory Maguire
4) Middlesex - Jeffrey Eugenides
5) possibly the rest of the Chronicles of Narnia.
6) Life of Pi by Yan Martel

any suggestions? i mean to catch up on all the reading i've ment to catch up on over winter break.

im procrastinating. and i need to shower.

jeopardy snobs

BinibiningBaryos: stupidest contestants today
BinibiningBaryos: nobody got the answer for final jeopardy
BinibiningBaryos: but i got it right
BinibiningBaryos: "now the 4th largest state in area, it is the largest state to be formed from land acquired by the louisiana purchase"
oxvanes the rzxo: montana?
BinibiningBaryos: yep
oxvanes the rzxo: oh wow
BinibiningBaryos: exactly
oxvanes the rzxo: HAHAHA
BinibiningBaryos: ok
BinibiningBaryos: these were the three answers given
BinibiningBaryos: florida
oxvanes the rzxo: OMG.
BinibiningBaryos: mississippi
oxvanes the rzxo: OMGGG
BinibiningBaryos: and nevada
oxvanes the rzxo: OMGGGGGGGSTUPIDS.
oxvanes the rzxo: wow.
BinibiningBaryos: omg

blue-green hoodie

i was walking back from class today and some guy in this blue green hoodie caught my eye.

he was pretty cute. he was just some white guy in a blue-green hoodie.

he was just about to cross my path and then he asked me,

"can i bum a cigarette?"

and i said, "sure. thats so random because your blue-green hoodie caught my eye"

and he said, "its on sale at urban."

wow, OK.

so instead of

i havent done anything for school. hopefully, the following will be completed by december 13th.

- soc 157 term paper
- soc 137 term paper
- soc 157 final
- soc 137 final
- tagalog 10b final
- tagalog 10b presentation
- entomology final.

instead, i have self taught myself on the following subjects.

- gilmore girls
- yale university
- skull and bones secret society
- the bloods and the crips
- on what the c-walk really is
- secret societies
- freemasonry
- the history of abercrombie and fitch
- the history of the new york subway system

and much more.

wtf, right?

one thousand. seven

A- age: 20
B- band listening to most recently: mars volta. i got excited when i found my shirt over the weekend.
C- crush: orange. the bombdiggity.
D- dad's name: guido.
E- easiest person to talk to: myself. she always listens.
F- favorite band: air. probably.
G- gummi bears or worms: bears. except them green onces.
H- hometown: born and raised in los angeles
I- instrument: i can play pieces on the piano. i can play a few songs on the guitar. but thats about it.
J- job: student/retail slave
K- kids: probably within the decade.
L- longest car ride: here to florida. death.
M- mom's name: lydia.
N- no. of siblings: one seester.
O- one wish: ability to shape-shift. that would be SICK.
P- phobia: i dont know if i have one.
Q- favorite quote: "It's true, I do imbue my blue unto myself"
R- reason to smile: warm days, cold nights.
S- song you last sang: fiona apple - on the bound.
T- time you wake up: 9:25 am.
U- unknown fact about me: i know more about you than you think.
V-vegetable you hate: green onion.
W- worst habits: i eat until im too full. its a great feeling though.
X- xrays you've had: teeth. and i've had a sonogram of my uterus.
Y- yummy food: libra.

tagalog midterm, in an hour

procrastination to the max. i know i need to study.

its so hard studying for tagalog. its like studying from something that is so foreign but so famiiar at the same time.

and then theres that thing where i suck at reading tagalog.

i love it when i or any of my class mates cant think of the tagalog word so we butcher the spainish word and hope for the best.

thats funnier is when we're right.

notebook = cuaderno = KUWADENO
friday = viernes = BIYERNES
six = seis = SAIS.

no, whats funnier is when we speak taglish.

to play basketball = ?? = mag-BASKETBOL.

side note

i need to get a job = necesito un trabahjo = kukuhan ako ng trabaho kasi walang pera sa banko. :(

i'll do it later

im ever so plagued. just do this and go to sleep

also

did i mention that i will remain celibate until i get married?

which means: marry me now!

im fucking with you.

hmm

for some strange and exotic reason, i was watching episodes of felicity on the WE network. it was the episode where felicity wants to have sex with noel so therefore they plan it. she writes it in her day planner and everything

monday:
10:10 - 11:00 am : class
11:00 - 3:00 pm : nap
3:10 - 4:00 pm : class
5:00 - 9:00 pm: [insert boy's name here] - sex

5 to 9. is that asking for too much?

hm. i kind wish i had that written down. who am i kidding, i do have that moment written down.

children

i keep seeing children around me and ive decided that i will have three children and 5 year intervals. yes, that means that every 5 years, i will consciously go off birth control and have a bebe. why? because my kids arent running a muck all over the place. fucking kids.

control

currently i'm re-learning how to exercise my control over my actions. its my attempt to mentally pull myself out of procrastination. i hope this works.

gabnet

so im currently at home because i am in los angeles for a gabriela network conference. my friend lora and i are going to try to start a gabnet chapter in riverside.

what is gabnet you ask? its a us/philippine women's solidarity organization. it addresses issues that not only filipina women face in the philippines but the social issues and issues in general that women face. creating a safe space that women can discuss their problems and concerns in is a vital thing in this male domintated world. yes, i realize how immaculate heart this all is. but its something that i am interested in and something that i remember i was passionate about.

the only thing is that im so shitty regarding following through with things. whenever i'm in a leadership position, im always too busy to do things or i procrastinate with things. and when i look back after my time, i think, damn it would have been so easy just to do this... or that. whatever. this is an opportunity.

i always find it difficult that men always question a large group of women. they stand in awe with thoughts running through their mind like, "oh god. angry brown women... run away."

carolina (my cousin's fiance) ran a workshop today regarding bodies and movement. she stressed that our bodies; ourselves is where solidarity starts. you cannot start a movement without taking control of the space around you. you cannot take control of the space around you without being in control of yourself and your core.

how can i start this when i myself am unsure?

post #1001

thats right. 1000 posts before this. whatever. it took me way too long.

==

why it took me so long to get 1000 posts.

the answer is obvious. i spread myself around.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/vanessaisbored/ the main means of telling the world what im all about. except its totally a lie.

http://neighborhoods.livejournal.com/ a paid account. can you believe it? thanks danielle

http://blog.myspace.com/vanessaisbored in all its myspace glory.

http://heylookup.blogspot.com its what you're reading right now. arent you special.

http://tortillas.pitas.com/ a sad fucking attempt. yeeh booi.

http://coffeetv_.blogspot.com non-existant actually deleted.

http://c_______v.blogspot.com there, but you're not allowed to read it. except for the people who already do. whatever.

http://c_______vpr_.blogspot.com the real shit. you'll never be allowed to read it. you're ears would fall of and your eyes would bleed. fuck yes.

==

mag-bablog ako sa dormtoryo sa riberside.

i slept through halloween

oh well. i looks like i'll probably go to chruch today... today being a holy day of obligation.

obligation. arent we supposed to be obligated to go to church every weekend? i havent gone in months. i kinda like church, that is, it feels like home.

now i sound religious, which im far from. im not that kind of person. in fact today, the gideon society was on campus.

"would you like a bible?", asked the gideon representative
"no, im wiccan", i replied.

i always wonder where the gideons get their fucking money to put their bibles in every frikkin hotel room in the country. i mean, i should look that shit up in wikipedia.

in anycase, i should probably address my views on religion while no one is watching. i mean, isnt that when people are most truthful? and besides, i havent been religiously invigorated in a while, so my thoughts will be from a far away standpoint.

i was baptized into the Roman Catholic Church in December 1985. the choice was made by my parents (a practice shunned by other christians). i started my Catholic school education in september of 1990. 'religious education' came in the form of "this is our faith" text books, daily prayer, and first friday masses. two good words that can describe my relgious experiences are "blissful" and "blind". i went to church every sunday with my family. and on top of that, people who only went to church on easter and christmas bugged the hell out of me (it still does now, except for the fact that im now one of them).

after graduating from elementary school, i attended imamculate heart high school, a catholic (but we all swear it was more close to pagan) all girls highschool. this is probably where my religious upheaval occured. with the exception of religion two, where we learned about "safe sex" (abstinence) and abortion (we watched the propaganda tape with an opening welcome by charton heston) and contemporary moral issues (rizzo didnt teach me any knowledge or propaganda that had already been forced upon me) religion classes were good.

let me specify that first. any religion class taught by ms. pollia was a good one. had i had ms. knudsen for any class, she'd be on this list too. but alas, no. ms. pollia taught religion in a (at the time) bizarre way. yes, she showed us catholicism and christianity, but she always told us the back story. the back story had so much more meaning. like she said, you cant teach current events without teaching world history before it.

anyways, ms. pollia taught religion in the best way. she didnt pelt us with dogma and facts, she presented us with what was believed and how others interpreted it. we had the decision to believe or not. in experiencing god, she taught us that God can be found everywhere. prayer is not a list of memorized prayer but a conversation with God. sometimes, when we had our 5 mintues of meditation, i found myself. i was able to catch up with everything in my life. in on being catholic, i was able to see the church for what it was, a chuch built by fallible men. all religions are faulty but you have to see through the cracks and be able to see its basic mission. thats probably why im still Catholic. yes, we have some crazy rituals, but thats what keeps us centered. most of the criticisms of the Catholic church have already been addressed by the church in Vatican II. its just up to the whole church itself to catch up.

i stopped going to church when my mom started to leave things in "God's Hands". leaving things in God's hands really means that you're letting go of your issues and allowing them to solve themselves.

yes, the church is a backwards place where gay marriage is prohibited and contraception will get you into hell. i also know that you shouldnt be a selective catholic. but thats what i am, a selective catholic. i believe in God, the trinity, Jesus rising from the tomb, Mary the mother of God. I've read the old testament and the new testamentthe book of revelation. I believe in the basics.

i dont believe that people who have been divorced can't get into heaven. i dont believe that a woman shouldnt not be able to control how many children she wants. i dont believe that you have to be catholic to get into heaven. i believe in karma, the golden rule, and that we have free will. i've read parts of the the qur'an, the vedas, and the pentateuch.

beliefs can change, through life experiences. for example, i used to be an adament pro-lifer. after my own experiences and other friend's experiences, i am pro-choice. if you made a mistake or if someone had violated you, you should be able to fix your life.

marriage is a union between two people who love each other and want to be able to see each other if one of them is in the ER.

in anycase, im not where near the end of my relgious journey in life.

999



naps are the best invention. i wish i could have more of them.

i bought an assignment notebook for the first time in two years. i plan on using it. i wrote that down in my weekly goals. i miss immac's assignment notebook. they kept me on track, most of the time.

i have no more cigarettes. maybe thats a good thing. i maybe going up north for this weekend for the 4th annual queer pin@y conference. no, im not gay but im going to for awareness. im really excited for it. maybe i've become a conference whore too. but that another story.

==

recently i changed my mother's mind about gay marriage. i had just finished telling my mom about my friend who she really liked (she wanted me to marry him or something)

me: but mom, he only likes boys!
mom: whaat? he's such a nice boy! i like him.

a day later, we were talking about my sister's winter formal date

mom: he was a nice boy too.
me: well, he's a she now.
mom: whaat? but he was such a nice boy!
me: well he's still a nice person.

so after these two revelations, my mom decided that maybe it IS ok for men to love men and girls to kiss girls. good shit.

==

i also wonder what my mom thinks about me dating now. i've told her that i saw jeff way more than she knew (she knew that) and that i had dated doug for a while (she knew. she said he looked at me as if i was his girlfriend). i cant wait until i'm a mother. i'll know all about my children's business. i'll snoop in their goddamned rooms.

whatever homies.

maybe i'll start posting

yes, you've all heard/seen/smelled it. i have become a smoker. i've weight the pros and cons, (pro: not looking like an idiot when you stand outside witing for class/bus/life to happen, making smoking friends, being able to talk to the smoker side of the barrios familia con: death)

whatever homies, i'll quit soon. ish.

anyways, lately i've been happy. i stayed in riverside for a whole weekend, and i had a great time.

does anyone know how to fix a television? because my tv is broken. sad.

so i purchase the fiona apple album a few weeks ago. i decided yeasterday that i like the whole album. its ridiculously good.

im blogging from my dads shop. its always a bad sign. last time i blogged from here, i was paying off a $500 phone bill.

i just had the most horrible two days.

ipod = empty
car = broken.

its sad days.

hollywood bowling

during intermission danielle and i decided that we would get hot apple cider the way we would during hollywood bowl concerts of our youths.

alas, the new hollywood bowl does not sell apple cider.

instead, we purchased two hard brownies and decided to have a cigarette.

when approching the smoking area, we discovered that my dad was already there smoking his benson and hedges. happy birthday, dad.

"i dont really look like this in real life"

showered and clean. you know what i mean?

i tend to speak in tea cups.

sometimes i space out at work and i stare a customers. some of you have the most sour looks on your faces. sometimes you look lost and when i walk over to help, you pull out the bottom most item from the bottom of the stack. boy are you dumb.

school begins in 9 days.

i turn 20 in 10 days.

i want a vaporizer for my birthday.

im kidding

not really.

yes i am.

my long forever summer

god, what a long fucking summer. the beginning of summer feels so distant. it doesnt feel like "damn, i just moved out of my apartment like thre days ago."

whatever dudes, i made money at ae, spent money from here to wyoming, then from here to san francisco.

i've learned how to live my life without writing about it in this foresaken blog. not really. i suppose its better for the people who know everything in my life to actually be in my life.

i didnt mean that. i miss everyone. im kicking myself for not making enough of an effort to see people this summer.

i've also learned to stop assuming that people are good people because people suck and they never pick up their clothes even when they see people with armloads of merchandise. fuckers.

my brain is an empty bin. i've emptied it out slowly during the summer and i didnt put anything back. oh except memories.

i remember that saint brendan reunions should probably include more than 7 people.

sony fontopia ear buds will block out everything from the white noise of a buses engine to the harsh vocal stylings of tourists

i probably will be ass before the next harry potter book is released

i am unsure which is worse.

i kinda wish i had lungs of steel.

whatever. i have work soon. goodbye

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by the way, i hate salt lake city.

i didnt post anything during july. wow.

what? i guess.

summer brings beautiful

summer began yesteday. my summer vacation is 2 weeks in. this picture montage is x-posted to livejournal.


i'm


so


happy


that


i'm


not


in


riverside



actually,


jal's in riverside, but whatever. he's always home. and he looks bootyful in this photo.

on-hand

i'd like to talk about my hand and how its bigger and how i no longer have knuckles and how i invite everyone to see them (yes, come to my house), but i would much rather talk about my evening.

in one word: kidnapbatman110reroutebenitoshome.

sooo good.

i left. and i forgot my bag

how serendipitous. this dog jumped into kat's car.

"its a cocker spaniel! its the SatC dog! !!! !"

we got to the South Los Angeles Animal Shelter. he said, "this isnt a cocker spaniel, this its a king charles cavalier spaniel!"

i just gave a $2000+ dog to the pound. hmph

"oh my god vanessa, i thought you died"

such words from hugo, a co-worker who was witness to worst of my illness. today marked my triumphant return to ae. whatever, i need monies.

i want to work for lacoste because of their FATTY DISCOUNT. FATTY DISCOUNT.

whatever... its time for the year in review

chill.

thats it. i feel ambivalent concerning the events that had created the past three quarters. i didnt love it but i didnt hate it.

or maybe i'm just being negative on purpose. bitches.

==

by the way, does anyone want to help me move out?

the gym

i've joined 24 hour fitness.

ok, i didnt. danielle bought the membership for me. its her little way of saying, "vanessa, you have a large ass."

anyways, i need to get my ass up and to the gym anyways. i'm gym-ing it at the 24 hour fitness near the archlight theaters. i get to see happy people on their happy dates eating happy food while i kill myself at the gym. YAY.

finals

they're over. for me at least. i've finally given myself a break summer-school wise. after 5 years, im not going to summer school. YESS. i can now dedicate my life to slave-like labor at ae.

car
my benz has now morphed itself into the most gangster car in existance: an oldsmobile cutlass supreme.

im chillin'.

neglect

whatever. it was time for a change.

and it was depressing seeing that chatterbox so lonesome. fuck comments. fuck tags. call me and tell me what you think.

and i'm talking to you, wangster.

i'm kinda restless. not looking forward to summer. not looking forward to anything.

that sucks, yes? not looking forward to anything?

a spider bit me in the eye.

no joke

since i last really posted i have...

- become blonde
- finally learned some tagalog
- became a bitter old soul
- learned to appreciate winters
- created my own religion

yeah. i guess i shouldnt leave ever. ever again. (messy grammar, but its gets the point across)

about the skin

a mother fucking maystar design. personally i hate maystart designs. they're not aesthetically pleasing.

thats my car. thats my ignition. and those are my dad's hands.

i call the picture... frustration.

over a month since i've written in here.

does that mean that this blog is dead?

whatever. life is alright. i cant complain.