so instead of

i havent done anything for school. hopefully, the following will be completed by december 13th.

- soc 157 term paper
- soc 137 term paper
- soc 157 final
- soc 137 final
- tagalog 10b final
- tagalog 10b presentation
- entomology final.

instead, i have self taught myself on the following subjects.

- gilmore girls
- yale university
- skull and bones secret society
- the bloods and the crips
- on what the c-walk really is
- secret societies
- freemasonry
- the history of abercrombie and fitch
- the history of the new york subway system

and much more.

wtf, right?

one thousand. seven

A- age: 20
B- band listening to most recently: mars volta. i got excited when i found my shirt over the weekend.
C- crush: orange. the bombdiggity.
D- dad's name: guido.
E- easiest person to talk to: myself. she always listens.
F- favorite band: air. probably.
G- gummi bears or worms: bears. except them green onces.
H- hometown: born and raised in los angeles
I- instrument: i can play pieces on the piano. i can play a few songs on the guitar. but thats about it.
J- job: student/retail slave
K- kids: probably within the decade.
L- longest car ride: here to florida. death.
M- mom's name: lydia.
N- no. of siblings: one seester.
O- one wish: ability to shape-shift. that would be SICK.
P- phobia: i dont know if i have one.
Q- favorite quote: "It's true, I do imbue my blue unto myself"
R- reason to smile: warm days, cold nights.
S- song you last sang: fiona apple - on the bound.
T- time you wake up: 9:25 am.
U- unknown fact about me: i know more about you than you think.
V-vegetable you hate: green onion.
W- worst habits: i eat until im too full. its a great feeling though.
X- xrays you've had: teeth. and i've had a sonogram of my uterus.
Y- yummy food: libra.

tagalog midterm, in an hour

procrastination to the max. i know i need to study.

its so hard studying for tagalog. its like studying from something that is so foreign but so famiiar at the same time.

and then theres that thing where i suck at reading tagalog.

i love it when i or any of my class mates cant think of the tagalog word so we butcher the spainish word and hope for the best.

thats funnier is when we're right.

notebook = cuaderno = KUWADENO
friday = viernes = BIYERNES
six = seis = SAIS.

no, whats funnier is when we speak taglish.

to play basketball = ?? = mag-BASKETBOL.

side note

i need to get a job = necesito un trabahjo = kukuhan ako ng trabaho kasi walang pera sa banko. :(

i'll do it later

im ever so plagued. just do this and go to sleep

also

did i mention that i will remain celibate until i get married?

which means: marry me now!

im fucking with you.

hmm

for some strange and exotic reason, i was watching episodes of felicity on the WE network. it was the episode where felicity wants to have sex with noel so therefore they plan it. she writes it in her day planner and everything

monday:
10:10 - 11:00 am : class
11:00 - 3:00 pm : nap
3:10 - 4:00 pm : class
5:00 - 9:00 pm: [insert boy's name here] - sex

5 to 9. is that asking for too much?

hm. i kind wish i had that written down. who am i kidding, i do have that moment written down.

children

i keep seeing children around me and ive decided that i will have three children and 5 year intervals. yes, that means that every 5 years, i will consciously go off birth control and have a bebe. why? because my kids arent running a muck all over the place. fucking kids.

control

currently i'm re-learning how to exercise my control over my actions. its my attempt to mentally pull myself out of procrastination. i hope this works.

gabnet

so im currently at home because i am in los angeles for a gabriela network conference. my friend lora and i are going to try to start a gabnet chapter in riverside.

what is gabnet you ask? its a us/philippine women's solidarity organization. it addresses issues that not only filipina women face in the philippines but the social issues and issues in general that women face. creating a safe space that women can discuss their problems and concerns in is a vital thing in this male domintated world. yes, i realize how immaculate heart this all is. but its something that i am interested in and something that i remember i was passionate about.

the only thing is that im so shitty regarding following through with things. whenever i'm in a leadership position, im always too busy to do things or i procrastinate with things. and when i look back after my time, i think, damn it would have been so easy just to do this... or that. whatever. this is an opportunity.

i always find it difficult that men always question a large group of women. they stand in awe with thoughts running through their mind like, "oh god. angry brown women... run away."

carolina (my cousin's fiance) ran a workshop today regarding bodies and movement. she stressed that our bodies; ourselves is where solidarity starts. you cannot start a movement without taking control of the space around you. you cannot take control of the space around you without being in control of yourself and your core.

how can i start this when i myself am unsure?

post #1001

thats right. 1000 posts before this. whatever. it took me way too long.

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why it took me so long to get 1000 posts.

the answer is obvious. i spread myself around.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/vanessaisbored/ the main means of telling the world what im all about. except its totally a lie.

http://neighborhoods.livejournal.com/ a paid account. can you believe it? thanks danielle

http://blog.myspace.com/vanessaisbored in all its myspace glory.

http://heylookup.blogspot.com its what you're reading right now. arent you special.

http://tortillas.pitas.com/ a sad fucking attempt. yeeh booi.

http://coffeetv_.blogspot.com non-existant actually deleted.

http://c_______v.blogspot.com there, but you're not allowed to read it. except for the people who already do. whatever.

http://c_______vpr_.blogspot.com the real shit. you'll never be allowed to read it. you're ears would fall of and your eyes would bleed. fuck yes.

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mag-bablog ako sa dormtoryo sa riberside.

i slept through halloween

oh well. i looks like i'll probably go to chruch today... today being a holy day of obligation.

obligation. arent we supposed to be obligated to go to church every weekend? i havent gone in months. i kinda like church, that is, it feels like home.

now i sound religious, which im far from. im not that kind of person. in fact today, the gideon society was on campus.

"would you like a bible?", asked the gideon representative
"no, im wiccan", i replied.

i always wonder where the gideons get their fucking money to put their bibles in every frikkin hotel room in the country. i mean, i should look that shit up in wikipedia.

in anycase, i should probably address my views on religion while no one is watching. i mean, isnt that when people are most truthful? and besides, i havent been religiously invigorated in a while, so my thoughts will be from a far away standpoint.

i was baptized into the Roman Catholic Church in December 1985. the choice was made by my parents (a practice shunned by other christians). i started my Catholic school education in september of 1990. 'religious education' came in the form of "this is our faith" text books, daily prayer, and first friday masses. two good words that can describe my relgious experiences are "blissful" and "blind". i went to church every sunday with my family. and on top of that, people who only went to church on easter and christmas bugged the hell out of me (it still does now, except for the fact that im now one of them).

after graduating from elementary school, i attended imamculate heart high school, a catholic (but we all swear it was more close to pagan) all girls highschool. this is probably where my religious upheaval occured. with the exception of religion two, where we learned about "safe sex" (abstinence) and abortion (we watched the propaganda tape with an opening welcome by charton heston) and contemporary moral issues (rizzo didnt teach me any knowledge or propaganda that had already been forced upon me) religion classes were good.

let me specify that first. any religion class taught by ms. pollia was a good one. had i had ms. knudsen for any class, she'd be on this list too. but alas, no. ms. pollia taught religion in a (at the time) bizarre way. yes, she showed us catholicism and christianity, but she always told us the back story. the back story had so much more meaning. like she said, you cant teach current events without teaching world history before it.

anyways, ms. pollia taught religion in the best way. she didnt pelt us with dogma and facts, she presented us with what was believed and how others interpreted it. we had the decision to believe or not. in experiencing god, she taught us that God can be found everywhere. prayer is not a list of memorized prayer but a conversation with God. sometimes, when we had our 5 mintues of meditation, i found myself. i was able to catch up with everything in my life. in on being catholic, i was able to see the church for what it was, a chuch built by fallible men. all religions are faulty but you have to see through the cracks and be able to see its basic mission. thats probably why im still Catholic. yes, we have some crazy rituals, but thats what keeps us centered. most of the criticisms of the Catholic church have already been addressed by the church in Vatican II. its just up to the whole church itself to catch up.

i stopped going to church when my mom started to leave things in "God's Hands". leaving things in God's hands really means that you're letting go of your issues and allowing them to solve themselves.

yes, the church is a backwards place where gay marriage is prohibited and contraception will get you into hell. i also know that you shouldnt be a selective catholic. but thats what i am, a selective catholic. i believe in God, the trinity, Jesus rising from the tomb, Mary the mother of God. I've read the old testament and the new testamentthe book of revelation. I believe in the basics.

i dont believe that people who have been divorced can't get into heaven. i dont believe that a woman shouldnt not be able to control how many children she wants. i dont believe that you have to be catholic to get into heaven. i believe in karma, the golden rule, and that we have free will. i've read parts of the the qur'an, the vedas, and the pentateuch.

beliefs can change, through life experiences. for example, i used to be an adament pro-lifer. after my own experiences and other friend's experiences, i am pro-choice. if you made a mistake or if someone had violated you, you should be able to fix your life.

marriage is a union between two people who love each other and want to be able to see each other if one of them is in the ER.

in anycase, im not where near the end of my relgious journey in life.