i've been sitting here in front of my computer attempting to write something. behind me, im watching tv. there area ton of thoughts in my head but i cant even get it out. for some reason, i've become self conscious about what i write on here. if i type out something happy, i'll feel like im being so fake. if i type something overtly depressing, i'll seem so whiny.

blah. thats depressing, make it stop.

i guess its because i just saw that hersheys kiss commercial. you know, the one with the bells. i can remember seeing it last year and actually feeling happy. and i quote, "i know its christmas time now that the hersey's kisses hand-bell commercial is making its daily rounds. ahh. the cute little bell at the end that rings its heart out and wipes it brow with the little hersey tag.. heh." dec. 02. interesting. lethargicness has already started. i feel like ally in rich girls, that she is afraid that she doesnt know what she wants to do with her life, except i go to college, im not rich and i know how to make a burrito.