in the immortal words of douglas macArthur... "i shall return." and i have.

sadly, i didnt have the will power to stay away for more than a month. but thats ok, not blogging for almost four weeks has been killer. anyways, my life has been alright. last you folks read, it was katrina's birthday! now, its the end of the year and some of your have been deprived of my thoughts and reflections of my life. well, here you go: my december, ruby from cold mountain style.

1) i had finals. yes, i made it. except for that whopping 4 days between my math final and my religion and science final. that was a lot of eating between my hall seeing that we had to clean out our refridgerators. classy moment: eating garlic cheese and melba toast with the guys next door while watching rich girls. lovely. by the time saturday struck, all of my hall had gone home.

2) i passed all my classes. yay. ::twirls finger like a party::

3) the third week of december was basically a big block of shopping. i hit south coast plaza for the first time which is the most eclectic mall ever. its simply fabulous that theres a sears and a tiffany and co. there. fucking fabulous.

4) i returned to immac. there were a whole mess of people from my class there. it seriously felt like i was back at home. dennys was rad too.

5) debut practices were in abundance this month. good times.

6) danielle came home on the 20th with a suitcase full of dirty laundry. classy.

7) baja fresh rocks.

8) i watched a good amount of movies this break. i watched the last samurai with some people in my hall. it was good. enjoyable and entertaining. lord of the rings: return of the king was lengthy but a suitable end to an amazing triology. perhaps when i set aside a year in my life, i'll read the first book. i also watched love actually again with my sister, who LOOVED it.

9) on the 26th, grass, jo, kat and i headed over to west covina to visit the son of God and watch a movie. at my request, we watched cold mountain, which was AROUSING. word.

10) this isnt really a point, but watching return of the king for a second times was a lot better than the first. so go re-watch it. yes, that is at my request.

in any case, my life in the past month has been interesting. instead of blogging i actually wrote in a notebook. but then i remembered why blogging was so much easier: i could re-read what i write. damn illegible writing.

happy birthday katrina!

awake? yah i am. happy birthday pj! the coolest immac-er around!

to anonymous

we broke up. that simple phrase is the one way to sum it up. in fact, there really is no way to sum it up. i'd have to spill the whole story if you'd want to understand it. i dont feel like sharing all the juicy details unless you want me to bust into tears, and thats besides the fact that i myself dont understand it. also, its been two months... and a day.

and if you all are curious on how im doing; some days i'm doing great, some days i'm alright and yet, some days i just feel downright horrible to the point where i want to crawl into a hollow log, get picked up by some firewood company and get shipped to a grocery store where city folk buy firewood, get transported by them to a bonfire pit in huntington beach and crawl out of my hollow log and sit on the beach until everything solves itself, but obviously, that will never happen.

in conclusion, if any of you anonymous readers are still out there are wondering, jeff and i are not together.

cheeee!

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eee... he's so cute.

shush. yeah i watched my first full episode yesterday. man, i love watching rich people blunder, even if it is a tv show. i am ready for the magic of chrismukkah.

so today was a cool day, last day of math discussion and last day of r&s... both fun times. oh wait... that means my quarter is over... all i need is to take my finals.

and instead of studying, i am taking quizzes again not for my real result but for the result i want, for example:

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did you know the season 5 came out and its only 8 episode but for the full price of that of previous 3 disc dvd sets from sex and the city. that is ludicrous. frikkin hbo. stealing our money.

also... go to jp's blog... it has SNOW on it. word.

also... visit brian's blog... his words of wisom are amazing.

also... eden... when are we mini golfing?? is it going to be a hoo haA?

love actually

i forgot! i watched love actually with pingol on sunday! and we got gingerbread lattes from starbucks.

love actually put me in the holiday mood.

is "redundant" onomatopoetic?

i've been sitting here in front of my computer attempting to write something. behind me, im watching tv. there area ton of thoughts in my head but i cant even get it out. for some reason, i've become self conscious about what i write on here. if i type out something happy, i'll feel like im being so fake. if i type something overtly depressing, i'll seem so whiny.

blah. thats depressing, make it stop.

i guess its because i just saw that hersheys kiss commercial. you know, the one with the bells. i can remember seeing it last year and actually feeling happy. and i quote, "i know its christmas time now that the hersey's kisses hand-bell commercial is making its daily rounds. ahh. the cute little bell at the end that rings its heart out and wipes it brow with the little hersey tag.. heh." dec. 02. interesting. lethargicness has already started. i feel like ally in rich girls, that she is afraid that she doesnt know what she wants to do with her life, except i go to college, im not rich and i know how to make a burrito.

"angelina, jolies hotter, shes jon voight's daughter"

i have been a licensed driver for a year now. yet, do i have insurance? no...

for danielle... she needs to get published or something.

I miss the sound of your voice
Though your words cut me
I miss the look of your eyes
Though it hurts me to see
I miss the touch of your hand
But it pains me
I want you back next to me
Though your toxicity poisons me
I miss the smell of you
Though I know it will destroy me
I need the warmth of your body
But I know you will crush me
I need you
Because I've forgotten how bad you are for me.

D. Barrios, 2003

woo hoo, december.

yes, that is all. *changes my calendars*