the best thanksgiving... ever

wow, for once i had an enjoyable thanksgiving. my sister eventually came home at 6pm and we had thanksgiving dinner for the first time. it was a pleasant change. cousins came and we watched elf at burbank. their exits are really cool. i'll share pics if you come over to see. i stayed up talking to my sister laughing at things that only we would laugh about. "i looooooooooooooove youUUUUUUUUU. see, i can speak whale" we also tried on all the dresses we had in our closets. from our immac graduation dresses, to her formal dresses, to my prom dresses. good times.

friday i woke up at FIVE... or i dont remember. all i know is that it was late. quite late. i had some of my cousin, jerel's girlfriend, debbie's dad's apple pie. it was good. seriously good. wow. yeah. good pie. i hung out with my cousin wendell and i cleaned his salt water tank which had a major red algae problem. today i woke up to nicole knocking on my door. danielle hung out with her and valeda while i sat at home doing nothing

and im still here, loafing around doing nothing. oh im going to clean my cousins turtle tank! yay! and possibly go shopping... maybe...

buddy the elf, whats your favorite color?

word. fun times with cousins... and elf... and orange walls... and glowing dildos. O.o

leon the snowman is too cool.

computer porn

first came furniture porn, now, a pascual-salviejo-barrios creation... computer porn:



its a threesome, word. and its a multi-racial relationship, see the pc and the mac? thats what i thought.

ok ok, so let me explain. my sister missed her flight at 4am because she was doing her LAUNDRY. yes folks, even smart people folly. anyways, last i talked to her she was in chicago on standby but the cooler part is that she wasnt charge for it. happy thanksgiving! reminds me of my story... i almost got run over by a van that was backing up at costco last week and i was like... ahhh! and i kept walking thinking the driver would be like, whatever. but no! he honked and waved! yeah, at least he acknowledged me.

anyways, my sis should be home pretty soon. for the first time ever, my family is having thanksgiving at night. hopefully, we dont break out in huge fights. *knock on wood*

so. i STILL havents had thanksgiving. yes folks, its looking pretty grim. my sister is STILL not home. sad day... anyways, whenever i DO get my thanksgiving, i will tell you. bye!

well, that makes me feel bipolar.

oh yeah, happy thanksgiving!

good morning everyone. im talking to my mom and she feels happy. and you know what? for the first time in a long while, me too. the fish tank is clean, i'm in my favorite pair of sweats, my bangs are finally beginning to look the way that i want them to, i actually look somewhat good in a skirt, i fit in a size eleven... even though thats a skirt from urban outfitters. harry potter in coming out in nine months, so, woo hoo.

so, i hung out with kat and israel. actually, first, i woke up and dragged myself to math class and then got picked up by my dad at 12:30. when i got home, i sat around in my empty house for about half an hour before i remembered that i didnt like being alone, so after asking my dad if i could illegally drive my car, i found myself on my usual route down 2nd street towards kats house. we watched a disc of family guy episodes which was really good times.

israel joined us and we headed to burbank where we ate at fuddruckers. i tried on clothes at urban outfitters. do you think the tweed look appeals to me?

after watching gothika, we saw lorenz, jp and ed. i also took pics of the harry potter cardboard thing.

oh yeah! some guy stepped on my camera during the movie now theres a dent RIGHT on the lens and the lens doesnt open completely unless i actually move the flap thingy. eh.

heh. i had this amazing post to post i closed the window and that thing where they ask to save or whatever pops up didnt do anything

and the bizzare thing was that i was writing about what would happen in the institution that is the internet collapsed and everything was lost? that would be rather sad.

history has been made.

vanessa has finally gotten an A on a paper. this is the first time. EVER.

thank you.

click here!

this is our awesome fire in action. i dont know how long the download is. by the way, the person handling the lighter fluid is KAT.

pictures from my saturday


my house. how quaint.


the odometer. woo woo.


downtown la on kuya's arm.


uh.. yeah. we found those in a wizard of oz pop up book.


it was patrick the pup's 10th birthday. as you can see, kuya was sooo excited.


future friendster pic


wtf?


our fire... word.


random pic


kat and i's toes.


our fire before it was taken by those people.

What to do if your mom discovers your blog?

the scary thing is that my mom is actually intellegent enough to find it. it frightens me.

and what do you get when you type in my name on yahoo? number one search return:

1. no title. no theme.
im vanessa. changed the skin again. ... de plan is dat we get away from our messy
lives for one day." word. barrios passed by at 12:53. ever watch seaquest? ...
heylookup.blogspot.com/ - 10k - Cached

i just saw a tumbleweed roll by.

ladies and gentlemen. i am in the middle of no where.

i had a long night... and who helped me though it?

kairos letters.

"burning got in my eyes!" -kat, on fires.

so, today i hung out with kuya. we went to the bouge... grove... fun rich people times. i'll post up pictures later.

after the usc victory. kat joined up with us to go bonfiring at huntington. fire.... fire. lighter fluid is fun.

now im home.

home! well i was home yesterday. anyways... im actually in a good mood! yes, yes! and that goddamned wind aint gonna blow away my happiness. yeah.. .freakiness last night with that wind. i let trotsky in for a while because i was afraid he would blow away in the wind.

woo woo. yesterday i saw jeff in a way i've never seen him. in lavender. he was really beautiful. angie really enjoyed it! it was major roomie bonding times! we also saw the cutest skunk on the way back. he was sooooo cute! until it started raising its tail at us...

well today im hanging with everyone's favoritest manong/kuya, brian! woo woo! what are we going to do you ask? we are , and i quote... "de plan is dat we get away from our messy lives for one day."

word.

ever watch seaquest? lady bugs? neverending story II? jonathan brandis killed himself. that sucks.

i had the most bizarre dreams last night. theres was a dream about a bear. and a dream about linens. a dream about jeopardy and a dream about shoes.

bah.

"if you wanna be possessive, its just i-t-s but if its supposed to a contraction is i-t apostrophe s! scalawag!"

whos eighteen today? ashley and nancy. woo woo!

and as if radiohead could get anymore depressing...

radiohead songs done by christopher o'riely... on the piano. word.

they are truly amazing.

"melissa says that the shoe boxes represent guys. and all of them are empty except for one."

interesting.

today... i watched the food channel. yup.

i had a dream last night. i dreamt that i was going down a water slide. a really dirty one... anyways, as i was slowly going down in it, i realized that people we're behind me. as i felt the water at the end on the tube. i realized that i was salt water and when i inhaled it, it felt sweet. when i fell into the ocean, it was a clear blue and the water was cold. i reached down and held a shell that had a hermit crab much like those mall kiosk things that sell hermit crabs. when i walked out of the ocean, i was at a funeral. i dont know who died, but i had a feeling it was some one from saint brendan. the front seat was occupied by my mother, my aunt and my dead grandmother. but it didnt seem like my grandma. but her voice was the same which is weird because i've almost forgotten what it sounds like. i started walking away from the funeral and i saw my teachers from saint brendan. i ended the dream at a skate shop at some strip mall. it was closed but i walked in anyways. i was going to steal a patch for my back pack but then i woke up.

hmm. eclectic.

oh. that was painful. fucking pensive-ness. i guess this is the reason why people dont stay up this late/early. when you end up staying awake with no one to talk to but yourself, you start to question your actions... you begin to aimlessly wander through the internet and stumble upon memories that were happy but are the memories that you are still trying to get over.

and then you remember that you worked hard for something to work. you put effort in and it was something that mattered in your otherwise useless life. but just by being yourself... it falls apart.

its makes you question not only who you are but why you became yourself.

i need to go to sleep. hopefully i'll get good dreams. i'm currently on a good streak. i havent been having happy dreams but they arent terrifying. i dreamt last night that i was opening shoe boxes. all of them were empty, except for one. i guess that dream just ended up making me feel depressed. i need ms knudsen to interpret that dream.

i need a kairos.

its 3am, i must be lonely. indeed. im covered in flour and i still dont have my essay done. ah well. 3 pages to go..

weird thoughts at 3 am

i have a mirror that sits on my bed that is set at the right angle so i can watch the tv which is sitting right behind me. i was looking in that mirror and saw my back reflection in the tv screen which was off, pictured below


then looked at the tv screen and saw myself.


sorry. that was amusing when i thought of it. i'll probably wake up tomorrow and say, "what the hell was i thinking?"

take a look at my archives page. i think its clever.

FILIPINO BABY
Recorded by Ernest Tubb
Writers: Billy Cox and Clarke Van Ness

When the warships left Manila
Sailing proudly o'er the sea,
All the sailor's hearts were filled with fond regret
Looking backward to this island
Where they spent such happy hours
Making love to every pretty girl they met.

When up stepped a little sailor with his bright eyes all aglow
Sayin, "Take a look at my gal's photograph"
Then the sailors gathered round him just look upon her face
And he said, "I love my Filipino Baby."

CHORUS
She's my Filipino baby
She's my treasure and my pet
Her teeth are bright and pearly
And her hair is black as jet
Oh, her lips are sweet as honey
And her heart is true I know
She's my darlin' little Filipino Baby.

In a little rustic cottage in the far off Philippines
Dwells a pretty little maiden all alone
She is thinking of her true love, though he's far across the sea
And her heart beats true for him and him alone.

Then one day he whispered, "Darlin' I've come back from Caroline
I've come back to claim the only girl I love
Then that night there was a wedding while the ship's crew gathered 'round
And he wed his little Filipino Baby.

CHORUS

this is a song of the the american occupation of the philippines. damn you white man taking away the innocence of that filipino woman

thats my church in the 1930s. freaky.

procrastinations galore

1. name: vanessa
2. nicknames: vaness, ness, barrios
3. name that you wanted: i always wanted to be called by my initials. ok that was just me in 4th grade
4. DOB: 093085
5. astroSIGN: libra
6. school: rivesiiiide
7. your reputation: my large car... porbeee

8. toothpaste: aquafresh. i dont think that has ever changed.
9. braces: no
10. shave: special occasions
11. shampoo/soap: dove and olay.

12. fav pasttime: driving and hanging out
13. fav book: that bible the gideons where passed out on campus last week
14. fav play: rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead
15. book that taught you the most: how to be an ax murderer
16. reading now: the confessions of al-ghazzali

17. sport like to watch: swimming and iceskating
18. sport like to play: swimming
19. fav teams: lakers and ih pandas. haha.

20. # times wet the bed: i dont think i ever did...
21. article of clothing always wear: underwear
22. first best friend: nicole in kindergarten... whatever happened to her?
23. fav toy: haha. hahahaha.
24. fav cartoon: animaniacs!get it! they wer animated and they were maniacs!

25. shows watch: rich girls. heehee
26. shows hate: rich girls. hehehee
27. show that makes you laugh out loud: the simpsons.

28. movie musical: the wiz
29. sci/fi movie: is the matrix sci/fi?
30. scary movie: the sixth sense.
31. made you cry: i dont know
32. made you want to kick ass: kill bill vol. 1
33. feel good movie: uhh... stand and deliver!
34. guily pleasure movie: haha. uh... dangerous beauty!
35. romantic/ comedy: princess bride!
36. witty actors: eh?

37. song you have to dance to: smooth criminal!
38. song you have to sing to: when in rome, promise!
39. makes you happy: junior senior!
40. disco pleasure: how deep is your love! is that disco?
41. madonna/janet song: again
42. makes you sad: love ridden by fiona
43. cd that you've listened to way too much: dashboard confessional. way too many a time i listened to that on my way to school
44. artists/band: tori, fiona, lennon, mccartney, motion city soundtrack

45. store: target and the fish store i go to
46. restaurant: old spaghetti factory
47. drink: peach tea
48. dessert: ice cream. damn lactose intolerance
49. chocolate: i dont like hersheys chocolate. i like good chocolate
50. flower: orchids are nice. so are roses, red ones
51. ice cream flavor: sweet cream with irish crem flavoring with almonds
52. starbucks order: venti tazo tea lemonade on summer days and tall caramel macchiato on cold mornings
53. cereal: lucky charms
54. color: clear

55. fav curse word: crap
56. sound you love: the sound of cooking
57. sound hate: you know that sound you get when you get a messed up download of a song. i HATE that
58. when you arrive at the pearly gates of heaven, what would you like god to say: what are you doing here?
59. word that you replace for badword: fack
60. worst habit, besides procrastination: minesweeper. i just cleared the beginners mine in 8 seconds. woo woo
61. pet peeve: not being able to remember my pet peeves
62. what you're known for: my hair.
63. season of the year you love: autumn
64. if you were to commit suicide, what method: perhaps the path of sylvia plath or lux lisbon from the virgin suicides.
65. if you had to have relations with cartoon character which: mighty max!
66. if relations with same sex which: hehee someone really sexy
67. if you could be someone else, whom: eden bautista
68. if you were to get a piercing, where: i think i want 0 gauges now.
69. if you were to get a tattoo, where&what: the immaculate heart on my hip.

70. fav pickup line: hey can i have a picture? for what? so i can show santa what i want for christmas
71. instrument play/ want to play: piano and guitar. both played poorly
72. language want to learn: german
73. skill you wish you had: to swim with really good form
74. obsessions: friendster and flipflops
75. shortest/longest length of hair: 5th grade, chin length. i think before i cut my hair, that was the longest it was.

76. car you wish you drove: one with a smaller turn radius
77. must buy cd: motion city soundtrack
78. must buy movie: igby goes down
79. mustbuy dvd set: sex and the city season 3
80. anything else: this survey brought to you by kt, eden and erin. thanks guys.

ladies and gentlemen. my life is complete. i can die in peace.

i can play F on the guitar.

thank you.

also: im getting a callous on my pinky. thanks a lot F chord. F you too!

night of sleeplessness, brought to you by caffine.

good mood really. minesweeper has made me tired to the point that my fingers have cramped up.

yes, sadness. im in riverside. i missed debut practice! boo!

oh another note, lil' kim is doing old navy commercials?

bored. procrastinating. again

ok. i didnt like that last skin, so instead of doing my two essays, viola, new skin. i dont like this one either, but whatever.

is this what happens when i leave los angeles? it freezes over...

waa. im back! christ man, i have to take this blog off hiatus. why? the trailer for harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban came out! WOO WOO!

seriously, i need to re-read that wonderful book because it took me 5 times of watching the trailer that that freaky ass looking hand was a dementor.

anyways. yes, im back. you cant resist me. im took rad for fads. and yeah, this is a boring ass skin. it wasnt much better before i messed around with it. i just threw the pig in. do something funny and if i catch it on my camera it might end up in place of the flying pig. word.

good morning everyone. its is 1:37 am on the west coast and i am awake. good times.

today. matrix revolutions. i'm probably not seeing it today but whatever.

hello children. how are you? me ? oh im just fine. wonderful, even. magnificent. great. simply fabulous.

meh. im feeling lethargic again. lethargic in the sense that im just feeling really sluggish. i dont feel like doing anything now.

i've been cleaning a lot. i'd do more, but i dont know where the hall vaccuum cleaner is.

thanksgiving is in 16 days. woo hoo. good times. danielle's coming home, so that'll be fun. wait... i have no car. looks like danielle's gonna be driving the civic all weekend.

you ever feel like you're putting effort into something and its just not working out for you? yeah, thats me.

oh i know why i've been in such a torpid mood. frikking winamp songlist!

A Perfect Circle - 3 Libra's
A Perfect Circle - Weak And Powerless
AFI - Synesthesia
Beatles - Come Together
Better Than Ezra - At The Stars
Bush - Come Down
Coldplay - Don't Panic
Coldplay - Shiver
Coldplay - Sparks
Counting Crows - Colorblind
Dave Matthews Band - Crash into Me
Dave Matthews Band - Crush
Dave Matthews Band - Where Are You Going
Deftones - Minerva
Jimi Hendrix - Castles Made Of Sand
Jimi Hendrix - Little Wing
Jimmy Eat World - For Me This Is Heaven
Jimmy Eat World - Goodbye Sky Harbor
Mazzy Star - Fade Into You
Norah Jones - Don't Know Why
Portishead - Nobody Loves Me
Radiohead - Dollars And Cents
Radiohead - High and Dry
Radiohead - Hunting Bears
Radiohead - I Might Be Wrong
Radiohead - Knives Out
Radiohead - Life in a Glass House
Radiohead - Pyramid Song
Radiohead - You and Whose Army?
Smashing Pumpkins - Perfect
Something Corporate - Konstantine
Travis - As You Are
Weezer - Only in Dreams

weird dream today... it involved ms conklin driving a mack truck...

i actually heard my ears stretching.

1 day until matrix revolutions. woo hooo.

2 days until matrix revolutions. woo woo.

3 days until matrix revolutions. woo.

word.

november, ay? well. october wasnt so great and those calendar pictures we're sad (black hand for my andy warhol and tom riddle for my harry potter one) and now its the same for november. i got frederick the great and harry fighting the basilisk.

holy poo. its november.

"it makes me feel" - eden on my guitar playing.

fun times for my halloween/all saints day.

well i went home with lauren and robin G! oh i miss her! that was fun... slow... times. except for that woman without a nose we saw... *shudder*

it was quite cold and rainly last night. i love cold. i love cold with a passion. i was a catholic school girl for halloween. a st. brendan catholic school girl. and kat was a christ the king school girl. word. we went to Conrads to visit katie and watch her seat people. yay kt!

i slept over at eden's house with lauren. that was cool times. leslie, guzman and hailey hung out too. apple juice and arm wrestling. word.

today i hung out with eden. i was her model. i was captain underpants and i ran with my flail. i seriously want to see how those pictures turn out.