today:

- class
- driving test
- failage
- report card
- more failage?
- out with kat and bianka
- nightmare before christmas
- silly string on hollywood.

some points really crappy, but other wise, i had a rocking halloween!

and posting...

you know that im really in a weird place when i keep on posting..

thats my grad pic.
i should probably order it now.

whatcha think?

i'll probably get to one that i'm looking AT the camera, but you know, in an ideal world, getting pictures where you look away isn't so foreign.

Life in a box is better than no life at all, I expect. You'd have a chance, at least. You could lie there thinking, 'Well. At least I'm not dead.'

wise words rosencrantz...
... or guildenstern.

oh and for a bit of comedic relief...

"Warren: Who glued these quarters down?
A.J.: I did.
Warren: What the hell for, man?
A.J.: I don't feel that I need to explain my art to you, Warren. "

thats from empire records. open till midnight. *MIDNIGHT!*

line of the day: tracy: what are you talking about, vanessa, you have virgin hair.

well i had a crappy day. physiology is a subject that i didnt expect to bite me. but it did. scary. at least in chemistry, i did ok in the beginning.

i think i hate school again. even art isnt so great.
and fucking german in chorus is driving me nuts.
and rosencrantz and guildenstern can DIE
ir is sleepy
and im beginning to wish i just stuck to business apps.

Hast Du etwas Zeit fuer mich
Dann singe ich ein Lied fuer Dich
Von 99 Luftballons
Auf ihrem Weg zum Horizont
Denkst Du vielleicht grad' an mich
Dann singe ich ein Lied fuer Dich
Von 99 Luftballons
Und dass sowas von sowas kommt

what i was for halloween.

each and every year, well the past 3 years in which i buy a formal dress that i use practically once, my mother complains of the waste it is for a piece of measly cloth. so i resolved to use my prom dress today as a part of my halloween costume. well i more or less resolved it last year with my torres acid trip costume with my winter formal dress. so what was i today? it first, i didnt know. i just walked around with my prom dress on as if its any other dress. im thinking, this is kinda boring, even people who are in free dress have something cool to say [ "what are you?" "im a public school kid" hehe ^_^ ] i started the day saying that i was a disgruntled prom queen. but for a lack of crown, it wasnt a very complete costume. so i have a bright idea. i'll be a girl who's pissed because she was stood up for prom. har har. so i'm girl who's prom date ditched her ^_^.

man, but i am SO jealous of kat's costume... SHE WAS SPECIAL!

hehe. and after school we had zankou chicken...

you bitch that is reductions. i hate you. but i have conquered you! i laugh in your expressionless face. you waste of perfectly good time. you strumpet, demimonde, harlot. i hate thee.

stole this from my friend cassie's blog

"Last night, I watched one of my favorite Simpsons episodes. It was the one where Homer had the crayon removed from his brain. Now, the procedure knocked his IQ up by fifty points, giving him a total of 105 overall. Okay, granted Homer was originally at the state of a walking vegetable and the operation greatly helped him in the thinking, speaking, and overall living problems but really . . . 105? What's more amazing is that with an 105 IQ, Homer proved that there was no God. AND he bested Nelson.

So what's the point of the episode? Well, I'm going to take a blind leap here and say the point isn't about Homer's IQ or spiffy nerd ensemble. Rather, the writers are saying that, for those of us who have higher IQs, there are things we should know even with the most basic of intelligence. Thus the whole episode is a crack at the audience more than Homer's intellectual plight."

makes you go hmm.

me (5:34:48 PM): que es un freak.
renee (5:34:49 PM): yes. super OMG.
renee (5:35:00 PM): si, yo soy un freak.
renee (5:35:14 PM): y los universidades son mas freakos.

so true, so true

look! its my jeff! waiting for me to call! awwwwwww isnt he cute! *grins*

ok so.. i went to ucr today to visit jeff.
special thanks to kuya brian omg! he drove me for usc to ucr! super duper rad!

so jeff and i hung out and did stuff... fun times! see thats my mood!!! :)

and i saw my pingol! awwwwwww pingol! like jeff said "i now know why you dont mix the green chemical with the blue chemical, IT EXPLODES! pingol and i jumped around, shrieked and acted like fobs haha

now im home... well i came home earlier. i got home at 7ish, and went to sleep because i was tired. then jeff woke me up at 1 and we talked until three am two am :)

and them i was went online, and jeff was online, so we're talking again.

hehe
ok. goodnight!

hehe. :) operation: city girl to country boy. completed

:)

today

so i got to school, not finished with equus and i was at pg 69 (no lie) when the bell rang i was like SHIT SHIT SHIT! so i grabbed katie and asked her what happens at the end. apparently, alan has sex with jill after seeing his father at a xxx theater. but while they're fucking, he keeps feeling the horse watching him so he pokes their eyes out.

FUN TIMES! i finished it in ir class even though i took the time reading. leslie was all worried that i wasnt writing anything.. my writing comes sporadically so i could be staring out into space when people around me could be furiously writing ^_^ leslie was like "omg vanessa! i was going to like.. hit you to tell you to start writing!!!!" haha. dont worry leslie!

chrous was in the chapel, man we sound good in there.ir was whatever, world religions was buddhist monk chanting filled. amabel and i were trying to chant like "aoieoinvoindjnrknf;osweurawurojasd" yeah. ok

mixed media... OMG. rebe sprayed my charcoal of hands wrong and it glopped and i tried to wipe some of it and it ended up taking the CHARCOAL OFF! i was like.. panicing and i ran to miss douglass and was like "omg! the charcoal... too close... blob.... wiped off" and i hence cracked up and started laughing my ass off with rebe. the charcoal actually look a lot better all broken up. an artistic mistake! looked cool. my hands looked like crap anyways.

physiology was wack. stupid quarter final. fuck you quarter final.

after school, kat, jo, davi and i went to aarons brothers where kat realized that she lost or someone stole her wallet. we searched campus, but my lazy butt got tired and i ended up scheduling my driving test. its on october the 31st at 3:30. yay. uh huh. i know thats halloween. im not stupid.

now im here, im going to go to comedy sportz, against loyola. huzzaH!. YAY. what props should i bring?

good morning.
im still not finished with equus.

oh god.

anyways....

today was a pretty cool day.

it started out where i woke up at 7:20 and walked out the door at 7:25.
i was frazzled when i woke up... i thought there were 4 commandments O.o
i got to school.. have english in the library... essayed..
chorus, i was dying because i was so sick.
break.. i just stayed in the library after section
physiology was ok.. we all got 100's
ir was ok...
activity was... ok
lunch was frazzling, i got my walk sweat shirt for the first time since freshman year ^_^
world religions was ok.
art was ok..

after school i went to a newspaper meeting that i really wasnt supposed to be at.
then i went to in 'n out with kat, ding and jo.

fun times in the non cd car singing ozma songs! yay!

laughing times dropping jo off! "oh! HELLO DOG!" -me to a random dog

and kat and i went to see the houses on ferndell.. our new anthem... "back to the beginning! FERNDELL!"
kat was a wand! how rad!

now i have a mood for my blog.. yay! im frazzled today! O.O

im a bloggin...

wee! i have a mood section! super rad!

yes, i have all this webspace to upload from.. so... after 4 years of having aol... im using it :)

jeff (2:13:09 AM): wide smile!
me (2:13:18 AM): *smile*
jeff (2:13:25 AM): dude
me (2:13:30 AM): dudette.
jeff (2:13:32 AM): i like you w/ headphones on
jeff (2:13:39 AM): they make you look...
me (2:13:39 AM): ...why
jeff (2:13:42 AM): sexay!
me (2:13:46 AM): bummish.
me (2:13:52 AM): i look like a bum
me (2:13:59 AM): this might be my halloween costume
me (2:14:02 AM): bum/collegestudent

procrastination at its finest

i am incredibly sick.
and equus is a bizarre play.

my personal statement:

dear admissions officer,
im not telling you my personal statement, its personal :)

sincerely me.

dear your name heeeere, it's been a long time very long time...

im blogging on my new blogs skin. weeeee!

pingols desk smells like beer

my application to catholic u smells like sex on the beach!!!

why didnt anyone tell me that fanfiction.net banned nc-17 fanfictions?

super rad! i'm linked by angela!!!

im home, alive but im not at school.
yes. i am totally tired. i couldn't get out of bed. and my throat is so soar.

oooh... im blogging on danielle's ibook... im in dc... the desk im blogging from has a lot of pics of me.. good to know that im loved.

its actually not THAT cold... just a bit chilly.

everyone is pretty nice here. all my sisters friend are pretty cooky.

anyhoo.. its pretty rad that my sis lives in an apartment.. its right outside of georgetown's gates... super rad!

actually blogging

well. day before yesterday was interesting... body butter.. carl jr. a clash.

yesterday was more or less mundane.

i did my school stuff... and i found the cutest ugly thing in the world.

i'm going to washington dc today.

technically... i'll be in new york... in the airport... then i'll be in dc.

if i dont come back, avenge my death.

oh help me but don't tell me
to deny it
i've got to cleanse myself
of all these lies till I'm good
enough for him
i've got a lot to lose and I'm bettin' high
so I'm beggin' you before it ends
just tell me where to begin

wow! pj got me in a fiona apple mood!!

kat: well....away i must to my sleeping chamber
me: alas.
me: farewell. i wish you a peaceful slumber.
kat: i shall see you moments after the dawn cracks open another day
kat: farewell!

can you tell we've been doing our essays?

"This handkerchief was taken by Emilia, “I am glad I have found this napkin… My wayward husband hath a hundred times Woo'd me to steal it”. Without the napkin, Iago has no evidence to frame Cassio and Desdemona. This seemingly innocent object is the grain of sand in the oyster’s shell. Iago builds his tangled web with the threads of that handkerchief. "
-except from vanessa's othello essay

wow! i wrote that. yeah i know "oyster's shell" you know. if ms. conklin gives me a horrid grade on this essay, i'll be fine with it. i'd be rather discouraged, but i'll be ok. i liked this essay. i hope i Answered the Prompt

this is my blog for today.i have no time to blog! no TIME!

Ooh baby, (ooh baby)
It's making me crazy, (it's making me crazy)
Everytime I look around
Look around
Everytime I look around
Everytime I look around
Everytime I look around
It's in my face

how bizarre how bizarre...

you know, that song has lyrics to them? yeah its a pretty long song.. so im not going to wast precious blog space for that,

jeff has a friend named abby. abby is now my girlfriend.. awwww.. heres a shout out to my girlfriend, abby!!

oh! and i shout out to my boyfriend too ^_^

good morning everyone.
vanessa is awake.

theres nothing like seeing people from your old class that makes you feel insignifigant.

scratch that... theres nothing like going to the sat's and seeing every single crush you've had since first grade that makes you feel insignificant. well actually its kinda funny. ah well.

there were 18 people from my old school there.. eighteen! it gave me a horrible feeling. i dont know why... its not that i hated st. brendan.. i always felt a little out of place or even sometimes detested. perhaps it was my annoying loudness. but not out of place my whole 9 years there... the last two years there, for lack of a better word, sucked. i tend to feel inferior to them and i feel like i need to prove myself to them and i dont need to prove myself to anyone. ah well. but there is such thing as cool st brendan graduates. really! yeah. it all when down hill the year they got air conditioning... just kidding alexa ^_^

and im amazed at how bougie sbs became. and their uniforms! jeez, black plaid! i mean, when you have plaid uniforms.. you gotta get it right.. the red scottish plaid. haha.. i remember doing the stupid lord of the dance/michael flatley impressions in them. sometimes i wear that damned uniform skirt just for the fuck of it.. but obviously not out of the house. i need get some huevos to wear that red montrose plaid outside the house again.

next time i'll take it at immac. at least i'll be on my home turf.

don't wanna be here, repeating a new year
don't wanna let you down.
cause i'm in a new town, surrounded by let downs
i don't wanna let you down.
and i'm alright, i'm gonna make it, even if i gotta fake it
i’m alright, i'm gonna make it even if i gotta break it
i’m alright

well. enough of this blog stuff.

this was my day... i went to a gym (note the genericness of that... i didnt say any particular gym) with two people.. (not saying who) and we just... did stuff. and they failed to tell me that i had a hole in my shorts in a VERY conspicuous place.. gee thanks ^_^

and at a certain persons house, i watched harry potter and the sorcerers stone, again..

ok.. man, i really need to devise some sort of CODE SYSTEM.. that only people who read my blog should know...

you know... thats a good idea.. the galleria can be like "the mall"...

ok thats insatiably stupid.

this whole blog thing really doesnt worry me.

im a-bloggin' happily.

i like that uprising though.. its all.. empire records-ish...

damn the man...

SAVE THE BLOGS!

i do not post personal information here.
nor do i know how to upload pictures.

come now. look.. my info has my obsession of flip flops.

if a faculty member or some one part of administration is reading this, i would like to believe that their views on myself will not change. i feel that the connotation that our dean put on blogs is rather negative. although people have misused ther blogs for no-so-great-heart/right-conscience purposes, there are people, who still use thie blogs for a small output for their miniscule lives to the public, like myself.

no, i dont capitalize. or use apostrophes.

my tag board changed. a flooble thing shows me part of an ip number so i KNOW if you're a stranger out to get me.

yeah im bored..

my bad poem:
surprise shrub

I feel so surprise and crestfallen sometimes,
sometimes i want to strike my finger and die,
the shrub is so cool and sad,
the dirt sound like stars .

I feel so surprise and crestfallen ,
nobody understands my blue , streaky pain ,
I want to tease and sneeze in the rain
the shrub reminds me of feeling crestfallen , the dirt mock my anger ,

sometimes i want to strike my finger and die,
underneath the cool , hot sky


make your own bad poem @ mewing.net
uh.. yeah :)

you know, im really kicking myself for not taking mixed media my freshman year. maybe i would've taken drawing and painting my sophomore year, then studio art my junior year and ap art my senior year

that was leslie said.. maybe shes just saying that... i mean, my charcoal isnt that good.. maybe its just because its of winona ryder... people seem to gasp when they see my drawing. maybe its not because its hideously ugly but because its actually good. my other pictures are kinda hard to do. i really dont think i can draw hands. well if i did this in freshman year, then maybe i'd have some sort of DIRECTION IN THIS FUCKING COLLEGE PROCESS... grr. im so angry. i dont want to do anything. can't i just open a fish store and live in the back room? fish is my hidden passion anyways.

i did just say that fish was my hidden passion. *sigh* i really am confused.

or! I'll be that dude in from on old navy at the market place and sing songs for people passing! like kat says about him, "GO YOU! YOU SING YOUR SONGS!" i'd sing them American pie, the first lines of Disarm, the opening strums of Today, the Chaunukah song and Wonderwall by Oasis... oh oh! and rocky raccoon by the beatles... hahaha cuz THOSE ARE THE ONLY SONGS I CAN PLAY ON THE GUITAR!

and my SAT score on the diagnostic thing went up 90 points to a total of 1200. and yay! i broke 600 on math! that was my only goal in taking that class** so im at least happy about that. i dont care if you got a freaking 800 on YOUR math score... i got my 610.. huzzah. :)

**i put class there because i couldn't rember how to spell course.. see:

me: how do you spell coarse... as in "SAT corse"
Auto response from Kat: damn life
me: yes. damn life
Kat: course
me: i cant even spell
me: OH!
me: hahaha
me: omg.

i knew that was wrong because corse means corpse and coarse rough in texture

ok.. thats all.

yeah.. so kat and i were bored.

but isnt that the prettiest ring EVER!?

yeah
and i cant go to sleep...

KntUndrstnmYAdng: hey ness
KntUndrstnmYAdng: what's up?
ox vanestherz xo: imman internet junkie
ox vanestherz xo: junKIE
KntUndrstnmYAdng: no hwk, huh?
ox vanestherz xo: nope
KntUndrstnmYAdng: lucky...
ox vanestherz xo: yah
KntUndrstnmYAdng: go to sleep then!
ox vanestherz xo: pish
ox vanestherz xo: nah
KntUndrstnmYAdng: haha...funny how we can seem to stay awake when we don't have hwk and the opposite when we do have hwk
ox vanestherz xo: i know!
KntUndrstnmYAdng: errr!! why are we messed up like that!!
ox vanestherz xo: because we ARE MESSED UP PEOPLE!
KntUndrstnmYAdng: indeed!
ox vanestherz xo: haha


that was really random.

Which Of the six wifes are you?

RAD!

Who are you?

how cool! tina fey!

cut it myself, mind you

interesting. i just cut my hair.

i wonder what would happen if i cut my own hair.

the new nirvana's pretty pucking good.. but it totally doesnt suit my mood..

how cool!
these past two days have been surprise filled.

friday: so im sitting at my comp and all of the sudden.. KAT is at my house and she said put on some pants (i was wearing shorts, mind you) and she blindfolded me and took me to eagle rock were kaytea, nancy, ding, norman, stephanie and kua were and we ate. then they all sang me a song! everything i do i do it for you. hehe. then we watched monty python and the holy grail. it was a cool time but jeff wasnt there so after i was glum.

today: sat class, blah blah. i went to te gal to buy pants. before that, ding called "you wanna hang at kats house?" "im like ok.." anyhoo,kat calls me too... "wanna come to my house" im like.. ok.. so... ::kats house:: im on the couch watchin bring it on. and kuya comes in .. like.. hey! and kat and kuya are still looking at the door way and who should walk in?
JEFF!!!
-[side note]-
kat: see?? so we DID get u jeff for ur bday
me: HEHEHEHEHHE
me: YES YOU DID!
kat: haha
me: THE BEST GIFT EVER
me: i couldnt unwrap him tho :-(
kat: hahaha
kat: nerd
me: hahahaha

WOW! SURPRISE NAMAN!!!!!!!! THEY GOT ME THE COOLEST PRESENT! JEFF! AWWWWWW YOU GUYS! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!! *hugs* :)

but the coolest was sneaking jeff and i out.. we were in kat's room "discussing stuff' and kat's dad's like.. where'd they go? and kat sadi that we left O.o so kuya and kat sneak jeff and i into kuyas car... VERY STEALTH! we were under a towel hiding

kuya: haha
kuya: kat and I tried hard to keep her parents from knowing where you were
kuya: haha
kuya: she kept laughing
me: hahahahahahahaha
me: omg
kuya: we tried to be slick but I dunno
kuya: haha
me: WE'RE LIKE A-SHADOWS!!!!!
kuya: haha ebryting is a like a operation!

so everyone was in on this! like.. jo!

me: and they got me jeff!
jo: lol! yea i kno ^_^
me: HEWHEHH
me: you knew too!
me: everyone knew!
jo: lol, of course!
me: wow!
jo: were ya surprised??
me: omgads surprised!
jo: lol!!
me: like.. yesterday.. when he wasnt at my party
me: i was like. :-(
me: so i wasnt expecting anything.
jo: heheh
jo: aren't we good friends? ^_^
me: SO GOOD!
me: GREAT FRIENDS!.
me: I LOVE YOU GUYS!

jeff said it the best:

jeff: supplies!

the end of my cool day!

uh... kats here...

you know, i wonder why i never made this blog a dark blog..

hiss. emotions. hiss.. har... emotions. man. that just sounds like a bad destiny's child song.

today was like every day this week. we finished all our movies. seven years in tibe was really good. so was courage under fire... times writing... fukien timed writing. more charcoal and cool! october sky!

btw... im not crying.. "this is tension asshole!"

wow.. im blogging like... regularly. maybe its because my regular visitors have now upped to like... 3... because before all this'traffic' jeff was my only reader.. and its not like he needs to read my blog, he already hears about my day in our marathon convos.

anyhoo.. today...

another ap-practice-test-chorus-led-by-alana-
donut-filled-section-courage-under-fire-IR-7-years-in-tibet-
world-religions-winona-ryder-charcoal-drawing-spinning-
chair-physiology day...

man.. those stickers are super cool. amazing how bored you get when no ones around.. after school we picked mkb out of the rite aid parking lot because he's still afraid of our parking lot. at kat's house i watched parts of moulin rouge and dangerous beauty again.. man.. dangerous beauty is such a good movie... even with all the nakedness, sex, and tits. i wanna be a courtesean. and beef steak.. MMMMM.. *eats with hands and sits like a fob* wow! we're FOBS!

yesterday:

school. blah blah.. robeks after.. and thai food.. mmmmmmm.. food.

fun random times with kat and ding!

woo hoo... kairos week!